Finding my purpose

Throughtout my life, I have often wondered what my purpose was in this world. Often, I'd feel as if I had no purpose. I was just going through the motions. I'd often make things more important than they really were, like having birthday parties for my five dogs. Did I really think that they knew it was their birthday. Yes. In a sense, I think I wanted them to know it was their birthday, and so it was.

I was shopping on Sunday. As I roamed from aisle to aisle, I thought about Eloy at home with the boys. It has become routine for him to take care of the boys on weekends when I go out to run my errands. So I continued shopping when it hit me. I'd found my purpose. I wasn't just going to get groceries, I was out finding nourishment and home essentials for my family. Yes, my family. It hadn't occurred to me, having had twins just 5 1/2 months ago, that I now have a "family". I have three lives depending on me to nourish, and nurture and love, and to provide for them. I have become the center of the home. Daddy looking to me for help when the boys cry. I have four beautiful eyes that look to me when hungry, tired, cranky, sleepy or happy, excited and overjoyed with laughter. Sharing withmy boys the joy of the moment when their little hands have made the toys that they are playing with ring out with a song has become my life's little moments of pure Heaven......

Yes, I have been going through the motions these last five months but I hadn't had that proverbial "moment of realization" that hey, this isn't just textbook life going on, this is MY life. I have a purpose now...and I "get" it now, like I never have before...