Doomsday has arrived
Well, today I'm 14dpo, All BFN's and AF is about to arrive for an uninvited stay....
Feeling strained lately...don't know whether, given the situation I/We should pursue IVF. Although DH had expressed a strong desire to get on with the show, he's been awfully quiet about it...almost sense he's wanting to avoid the topic, so I haven't brought it up.
He didn't ask my temp this morning. He always does. Doesn't want to hear it. Guess I'll just coast today until I see he wants to broach the subject, or until he brings it up....
I'm wondering how this will affect our marriage, if at all. I'm battling between a strong desire to have a baby in the family and risking the family we already have created. My dogs/cat do fill a void I've had, but the transference I have is not healthy.
For today I'm going to be the wife I've always been. I can't eat drink and breathe this infertility all day. There is a life to live here, although at times I want someone to stop this world and let me get off.....
Feeling strained lately...don't know whether, given the situation I/We should pursue IVF. Although DH had expressed a strong desire to get on with the show, he's been awfully quiet about it...almost sense he's wanting to avoid the topic, so I haven't brought it up.
He didn't ask my temp this morning. He always does. Doesn't want to hear it. Guess I'll just coast today until I see he wants to broach the subject, or until he brings it up....
I'm wondering how this will affect our marriage, if at all. I'm battling between a strong desire to have a baby in the family and risking the family we already have created. My dogs/cat do fill a void I've had, but the transference I have is not healthy.
For today I'm going to be the wife I've always been. I can't eat drink and breathe this infertility all day. There is a life to live here, although at times I want someone to stop this world and let me get off.....
posted by Mom of Multiples | 9:08 AM
1 Comments:
My heart aches for you..it really does. Somehow, in an unfortunate way...I feel your same pain. Except, you have such a 'strong and courageous' outlook. I wish I could latch onto that feeling. My thoughts are with you, as always
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