Pok Pok, chick chick chick chicken

Yup, backed out of IVF....hmmm....too much too soon? Probably. Scooting the schedule back some just for a breather. Everything was stacking up quickly....so much so that I was overwhelmed....Femara for another month, which I don't mind at all. It gives me the breathing room that I need, felt pressure, chest felt tight, very very stressful, more than I could ever have imagined. I just have not been prepped by the doc like I feel I should have been. You know, the sit down, lay it all out on the table;
Our medical history and what it means to our fertility
Two miscarriages/origins/what they mean to my fertility
Testing: results, interpretation and what they mean to our fertility
3 rounds of Femara, all failures, why?
IVF vs. continued Femara or Injectibles vis a vis expected results
IVF protocol, schedule, medications, what to expect, costs (physical, mental, emotional and financial)
Need a stress reliever (relaxation course, yoga, exercise?)

To be honest, I just need someone to hold my hand through this whole process. Just walk me through, step by step, inch by painstaking itsy bitsy inch. And I just don't think I'm going to get that. So I opted to remain where I feel safe....with Femara and IUI. After all, this month wasn't do or die, DH & I have some time on our hands. Although I must admit I did mention just resting this cycle and DH said NO. He did not want to rest, did not want to waste this month or give up a potential bfp. I was touched, moved and in awe at my husband, he's the best....

I did make one change NO temping for me (ok except maybe during the 2nd of the 2ww :) )
I am breathing a sigh of relief that I am in familiar territory with Femara...and with our trial schedule this month, Lord knows I didn't need any additional stressors in my life. Going through IVF would've been like tanning during a heat stroke...