Until last night

Last night, as Hubby and I were watching "Lost," I had a moment of realization. I was just sitting there, and it hit me. I AM PREGNANT. I mean, for real, get down, gonna have two babies, this is happening IRL, forever and ever amen pregnant....

I looked at Hubby and uttered..."I still can't believe I'm pregnant"

It was then that he said these words that I will forever remember...

He said to me:

"If you had never been able to get pregnant you wouldn't have been any less a woman and just because you are pregnant, doesn't make you any more woman than before..."

and it hit me, for years I wondered what he thought about my infertility, our struggles, my inner demons...and I guess I was too afraid to ask or too afraid to hear what he had to say, although I vaguely remember him making similar statements over the years, it really didn't ever sink in until last night......

It's true. I am no more no less a woman just because I'm pregnant. Nor would I have been less a woman had we never been able to conceive....