Christmas pics...

Sometimes its harder to post than to just sit mindlessly, surf the net or to read other peoples posts.....Then there are some times when I need to spill everything I have in my head and heart into some other forum. Pics do the job well.

This is the time of year that I used to spend wildly on others. Some would say that I was trying to conceal my pain. Still other would probably say I was trying to live vicariously through others children... For me, I say it was my way of coping with the pain and the loneliness. I gave with my heart always. Still, the many many years that I lived (although I'm not sure I can say that I actually "lived" I would prefer to say that I merely existed) without children seem distant now. I can barely remember them. Although I know in my heart that I ached, somehow this year all those feelings, the pain, the sorrow, the deep aching, yearning for more seem all but a fading memory.

This year, I'm happy to say that I have a home filled wih love and joy. This home that used to be but an empty shell, filled with unrequieted hopes & dreams. This home, I can safely now call my heart.

They say a picture is worth a thousand words? I have a few choice words I can think of....all of which will remain in my heart. Breathing (or typing) these words would almost make them seem less significant. Seeing the pics, you'll see I don't have to say one word.