Haute Mom to Twin boys!: March 2005

About Me

Location: H Town, Texas, United States

38 y/o married to my best friend since 9/12/1998; We met in 1992. Married in 1998; I'm a '91 graduate of the Univ. of Houston. Working on Masters degree in French Literature when I met the love of my life! He was in law school. I left my job in 1996 to work w/him when he opened his Law firm. Married in 1998. Working on our "family" diligently & actively since June 2004; 2 miscarriages, one Sept 2004 and another Dec 2004; Break from TTC per doctor's orders in Jan 2005; resumed family planning once all genetic testing was completed. March 2005 BFN; April 2005 BFN! May 2005 BFN! June 2005? Doc had "the" talk with us, if no bfp this cycle, it's on to IVF --test tube baby for us? maybe! Update: July 2005 underwent 1st IVF cycle, with SUCCESS! We conceived two beautiful little boys, born March 30, 2006 via emergency c-section. I am now wallowing in the joys of early motherhood. That is, lack of sleep, fatigue. My compensation? Smiles from the babies in the middle of the night... 11/14/2006: Babies are now 7 1/2 months old and I couldn't be more happy!

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Nail biting has begun

I can't pull myself away from the computer, I've crashed just about every search engine looking up every imaginary symptom I've had in the last few days....afraid I'll self-destruct if I get a bfn this month...it'll be the beginning of anxiety-ridden days and nights wondering if I'll ever get pregnant again. I haven't paid much attention to my husband or home or pets recently...I feel dazed by this whole cycle...a vicious vortex spinning me deeper and deeper into obliviion. Every voice sounds like an echo, I can hardly pay attention to anything other than my body...find myself self-absorbed and content about it for the moment. I can pull away from the ofc for just minutes at a time before sitting back down at the computer til my butt is numb. I'm a zoned-out, space cadet, desperate wanna be mother. My talents wasted on my obsession instead of more important things like my husbands needs, my pets needs, my family's needs. wish I could get away for a few days...at least a weekend...eloy is thinking about postponing our trip to San Fran or NY until this summer....I think I'll melt down way before that...that is unless I am magicaly rescued by my son or daughter-to-be....

Sunday, March 27, 2005

Hoppy Easter

Quick note to our baby; you're not yet born but I wanted to send you Happy Easter wishes. Dad & I took welo n wela to eat at Olive Garden; we saw cute kids in easter attire; little girls in gorgeous dresses and little boys in suits, ties, vests and the like. Dad & I talked about how hopefully next year, we'll have you here to dress up and take to Easter dinner with us. Until then...we'll be wishing you were here.
Your cousin Trevor is coming to spend the night tonight; He'll be flying home to Nashville and I'll be taking him to the airport in the morning. We live close to an airport and we love to travel. So far, Dad & I have been to Mexico City, Cancun, New Orleans, Santa Barbara, L.A., San Diego, Tijuana Mexico, Miami, Paris and London. Technically, you've been there too. We're taking you to either San Francisco or New York in the next month. Dad wants San Fran but I was kinda hoping for NY myself. We're planning Rome for late this summer, or we may wait until after your born.
We'll be finding out in about 2 weeks whether your on your way yet....I hope you are as you have soo many family waiting for your arrival, its going to be joyous and emotional, more than you'll ever know.