Haute Mom to Twin boys!

no more blues~11/14/06 BLUE 04/17/06

My Photo
Name:
Location: H Town, Texas, United States

38 y/o married to my best friend since 9/12/1998; We met in 1992. Married in 1998; I'm a '91 graduate of the Univ. of Houston. Working on Masters degree in French Literature when I met the love of my life! He was in law school. I left my job in 1996 to work w/him when he opened his Law firm. Married in 1998. Working on our "family" diligently & actively since June 2004; 2 miscarriages, one Sept 2004 and another Dec 2004; Break from TTC per doctor's orders in Jan 2005; resumed family planning once all genetic testing was completed. March 2005 BFN; April 2005 BFN! May 2005 BFN! June 2005? Doc had "the" talk with us, if no bfp this cycle, it's on to IVF --test tube baby for us? maybe! Update: July 2005 underwent 1st IVF cycle, with SUCCESS! We conceived two beautiful little boys, born March 30, 2006 via emergency c-section. I am now wallowing in the joys of early motherhood. That is, lack of sleep, fatigue. My compensation? Smiles from the babies in the middle of the night... 11/14/2006: Babies are now 7 1/2 months old and I couldn't be more happy!

Monday, January 31, 2005

Letter to my son

Hi sweetie, it's mom. Today is Monday January 31, 2005. Im sitting here at my computer and thought of you today. I wanted to write you this letter. It will be waiting for you. Today Dad & I got to work as usual, separate cars even though we work together. I come home early sometimes or stay late. Dad wentto welo and wela's house as he always does evrey morning. I caught him at the end of Santa Elena St., he was on his way to a hearing, me, on my way to work. I worked a long day today, 9 to 5. It was cold, unusually cold for Houston. We had a late lunch Dad and I, as we often do due to our work schedule. We had Boudreaux's and I had my usual pasta dish and Dad had his chicken breast with "smashed" potatoes as he calls them, and broccoli. It was rainy cold weather, overcast and very gray. Our pups didn't stay out in the courtyard very long. We have 5. Joey Qiqi Max Zeke and Sasha. We have one cat, Tango. She's a sweetie. We all get along great. Qiqi sleeps with us.
I had some blood testing last Friday, about 14 different tests. All to see if I have something wrong that they can correct. You have two little siblings, Angel babies watching over us. It's late; 9:07pm on a Monday night, Dad just called me over to watch TV, a show called Medium, I'll tell you more about it when you grow up. I just wanted to say HI. Good night for now sweetie, stay warm and we'll see you soon. Love, Mom

Thursday, January 13, 2005

Pity party of one your table's ready..

I haven't blogged in awhile; Im not doing too well in the blog department. Well since Dec 28th, I've been recuperating from my miscarriage very well thank you. My husband & I saw the geneticist on Monday Jan 10th. There is nothing significant in our family history to suspect any big problems genetically. We did have our blood drawn for the karyotyping. The geneticist was a young woman, not older than 30 I'm sure. She doesn't look old enough to be doing this but it is Baylor College of Medicine so I suppose I should trust them. So I do. We discussed many things with her including the possibility of having pregenetic implantation diagnosis (pgd) done with IVF. Basically they'll retrieve my "eggs" and have them tested for some 8 different possible genetic problems. Only the good eggs will be candidates for transfer back into my uterus in hopes of getting pregnant with a genetically "perfect" baby. That is, theoretically. Of course they do not assure a perfect baby since they do not test the egg for every anomaly known etc etc..... But this is as close as we can get to "selecting" a good baby. by that I mean a chromosomally normal healthy egg/baby. Eloy wants to go this route because in addition to selecting the good eggs, they also offer gender selection. Hence they could transfer only "boy" eggs back into me if that's what we want. And that is what Eloy wants. A son. If I had my drathers, I'd rather have a boy AND a girl. But let's not get greedy here. I want A baby. (Aaah as Antoinette would say) Aaah baby. Not "uh" baby. Dentist aaah. So, here I am, fertile myrtle, can get pregnant in the drop of a hat nowadays but can't stay pregnant. Woe is me. Pity party of one your table is ready..wow Im a terrible writer.

Saturday, January 01, 2005

Happy New Year

Happy, we'll start with that one. I am. Hasn't come easily though. I had two chances last year to become a mother, more than any other in my entire life. Instead, I became a high risk patient with infertility due to chromosomal disorders of unknown origin. Yeah, not easy. But I've managed to stay happy. My marriage is intact and I mean superglue material here. My husband just passed the Board certification and he now has the equivalent of an Oscar award to an actor. The penultimate of his career, how can I be anything else but happy? I asked. I'll answer. I can't "not be happy" and Im very happy about that! Several years ago before I had thoughts of TTC (well they were there just buried nice and neatly away) I was terribly innocent. Now, I am a seasoned veteran and this war is hell. New. Will I have a chance this year at TTC again? A new year filled with hope. Year. Wow, 365 whole days to TTC. I have plenty of time, despite this terribly loud ticking sound in my ear, tick tock tick tock. My thought are erratic fully depicted in my terrible prose. Sorry I am no Shakespeare and I paint not like Picasso. Although I am an artist and I am working on a masterpiece.