Haute Mom to Twin boys!

no more blues~11/14/06 BLUE 04/17/06

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38 y/o married to my best friend since 9/12/1998; We met in 1992. Married in 1998; I'm a '91 graduate of the Univ. of Houston. Working on Masters degree in French Literature when I met the love of my life! He was in law school. I left my job in 1996 to work w/him when he opened his Law firm. Married in 1998. Working on our "family" diligently & actively since June 2004; 2 miscarriages, one Sept 2004 and another Dec 2004; Break from TTC per doctor's orders in Jan 2005; resumed family planning once all genetic testing was completed. March 2005 BFN; April 2005 BFN! May 2005 BFN! June 2005? Doc had "the" talk with us, if no bfp this cycle, it's on to IVF --test tube baby for us? maybe! Update: July 2005 underwent 1st IVF cycle, with SUCCESS! We conceived two beautiful little boys, born March 30, 2006 via emergency c-section. I am now wallowing in the joys of early motherhood. That is, lack of sleep, fatigue. My compensation? Smiles from the babies in the middle of the night... 11/14/2006: Babies are now 7 1/2 months old and I couldn't be more happy!

Monday, October 31, 2005

Blooming?

I'm not sure I would call it blooming? Ballooning is more apropos....
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Babies this week:
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Your baby measures about 3.7 to 4.1 inches (about 9.3 to 10.3cm) from crown to rump and weighs about 1.75 ounces (50g).
Your baby's bones still consist of soft cartilage but they are now beginning to harden and the development of the bones and the marrow continues. Her ears are developing into a more recognizable shape and any hair already on the head and brows will become thicker.
Your baby may already be sucking her thumb.
Her skin is thin and translucent and all her blood vessels can be seen through it.
Her hair continues to grow on her head and her eyebrows. If her hair will be dark, the follicles will start to generate pigment to color her hair.
Your baby is moving more now and is becoming increasingly flexible. She can bend her arms at the elbows and wrists and she can make tiny fists with her hands.
(From FF)

Mommy 2 be:
Week 14 of our Pregnancy...not as fatigued as before *thank God* but instead grappling with other pregnancy symptoms. Still enjoy having them and wouldn't trade them in for the whole wide world --round ligament pains are not fun though. Otherwise, on autopilot....
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Daddy to be:
Gave the OK for a stroller I've been oogling....Found it in Pregnancy Buyer's Guide magazine and it seems to be the perfect one for our two..
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Collapsed, it seems to be not as bulky as the Valco stroller we looked at last weekend.
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Will have to order online as all retailers are up north or in Canada....love the wheels, not cheap plastic, but sturdy rubber wheels that can be replaced if needed. Seems to be useful for when they get a little older too, great for strolls in the neighborhood etc.. Saving $100 a week til I have it covered, then ordering it, just so I can send payment immediately to the credit card and have it be a wash....

Tata for now...14 weeks, 23 weeks left...

Mom

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Crying spell

http://www.click2houston.com/health/5190213/detail.html

It was too funny, I had a crying spell this evening when out of the blue a news piece aired about the procedure we had done, PGD, with our IVF.

My RE appeared in the piece and I just cried seeing and hearing his voice. Eloy was quite amused.

Thanks to the miracle of science and PGD, along with His blessing, we are pregnant expecting twins..

Time to go blow my nose some more...

CC

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

The babies were nuzzling today, it was sooo adorable, soo close together, soo soon. 'course no blog entry would be complete without a pic of my two children....Baby 1. Baby 2. then both of their heads, teaming up!

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It was absolutely wonderful to see them again!
Had a great visit with my new OB. He's fantastic, warm and inviting. Did an u/s even though I wasn't scheduled for one ;) Said I'll get an u/s at every visit from now on since I told him I was spoiled with Dr. G and got one at every visit! No video updates since his machine didn't do video, but I hope his new machine @ the new building does!
I asked lots of questions and he answered lots of questions, just an all around great doc. Said I could call with any little question or concern, even if I think it's not OB related!
Did lots of bloodwork, took 6 vials (I nearly fainted, told the phlebotomist to save some for Dracula!)
Said he usually delivers 80% of his patients babies, and that typically he sets a target date for twin deliveries 3 weeks prior to the EDD. (yay! April babies! Target date is now April 10th!)
I suppose the worse news I got today was that he'll want me to start bedrest at about 26 weeks....we're talking the end of January! yikes! Thank God we're self-employed! We're going to discuss it more in depth as we progress though, but that is a precautionary measure he takes with twin pregnancies....to avoid complications, pre-term delivery etc. I understand him totally.
Weird thing, he said he's heard of my hubby! (as awesome a trial attorney as he is...I wouldn't doubt it)!
Next visit is in 4 weeks (four longggg weeeekks) and at that visit we'll get the "big" u/s! Nov 22nd, I'll be 17 weeks 1 day!
So, in sum, I was completely satisfied with my new doc. They'll be in the new building by my next apppointment and that'll be an exciting adventure all its own.
Now I'm tired, 2 hour appt. had me wanting to take a cat nap. So, ta ta for now, mommy-to-be needs a nap!

C

MLK Jr.

Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.

-Martin Luther King, Jr.

RIP Rosa Parks...

Monday, October 24, 2005

Eye see you!

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My eyes look almost crossed here! I couldn't help it, I was trying to get a pic of the Mask of Pregnancy on the bridge of my nose/upper cheeks but it didn't quite work. You might catch a glimpse of a "brown spot" on the bridge of my nose on the left & maybe you can see the little patches on my cheeks if you look close enough ....yeah, those are it, NOT pretty. I wonder if they call it mask of pregnancy b/c it makes you want to wear one???

I just found this pic hilarious!

Giving thanks and praise to Him

I never thought I'd ever reach this stage in my pregnancy, honestly. Deep deep down, I braced myself for the unexpected. But as I awake this morning, here I am, 13 weeks, 1st day of my 2nd trimester (depending on what source you rely on, some say 12, others say 13 and even some say 14) I'm relying on 13, as I don't expect to go 40 weeks anyway.

13 weeks! WOW. 130 lbs. Net gain of 2 lbs.

Babies this week:
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Babies are about the size of a Jumbo Shrimp!
Your infant is about 2.19 inches (7.4cm) and weighs around 0.81 ounce (23gm) - This is about the same weight as 4 quarters. If you could peek in again you may spot your baby as he begins to practice inhaling and exhaling movements. Eyes and ears continue to move and develop
Baby's neck is getting longer, and the chin no longer is resting on his chest. Her hands are becoming more functional - Your baby may find it comforting to start playing with her fist. At this point all nourishment is received from the placenta. On your next doctor visit you should be able to hear heartbeat with a Doppler by now - (Don't worry though if you can't, the heartbeat can be confirmed through U/S). Your baby's heartbeat is much rapider than your own and may remind you of the race towards birth that he is running!
(from Pregnancy.org)
Mommy-to-be:
By now your uterus is about the size of a large grapefruit. If your due date has not already been predicted, an ultrasound measurement of your baby's head can be used to make one.
Your pre-pregnancy clothes are probably too tight by now. If you haven't already got some maternity clothes, now is probably the time to get some. You'll be most comfortable in loose-fitting clothes. Make sure you really like your maternity clothes- you'll be wearing them a lot. Friends, family and thrift shops can be a great source of maternity clothes.
You may feel less exhausted than you did earlier in your pregnancy. Some women even start to experience a rejuvenating surge of energy at around this time. Many women report that the second trimester is the best time of pregnancy as the morning sickness of the first trimester has usually past, and the discomforts and weariness of the third trimester have yet to begin. If you would like to take a last holiday before your baby arrives, the second trimester, with your doctor's approval, is probably the best time to do so. This could be a good opportunity for you and your partner to connect and share some couple-time before the baby arrives.
(taken from FF)

Daddy: Nesting nesting nesting! Carpet is next on the list, master, nursery, V's bedroom and the study. Daddy-to-be took me shopping yesterday, as promised! We saw the Valco twin stroller (It is HUGE!) At $549.00 it is well worth the price. The only hold back is that the sales guy couldn't show me how to close it up, he folded it once, but it was still HUGE, I can't even imagine lifting that monstrosity! Next we visited Pottery Barn for Kids....not too impressed with the crib selection, but they have nice room accents.

Our plans are, after carpet installation, to re-do the kitchen countertops and get new sinks---(main & bar) which I'll need desperately with the tweenkies! My hot water in-sink-erator broke about 2 years ago, can't wait for a new one! 200 degree hot water in an instant is an absolute necessity!

For today, I'm enjoying the 1st day of my 2nd trimester! A day to rejoice and give thanks and praise...

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Friday, October 21, 2005

Bipolar disorder

No I don't have it, I thank God everyday for my mental clarity. But I found a rather interesting source to explain the perverse course of events I've been (unfortunately) privy to of late. I find this article rather intruiging...suits the situation to a "T."


Bipolar disorder, also known as manic-depressive illness, is a brain disorder that causes unusual shifts in a person's mood, energy, and ability to function. Different from the normal ups and downs that everyone goes through, the symptoms of bipolar disorder are severe. They can result in damaged relationships, poor job or school performance, and even suicide. But there is good news: bipolar disorder can be treated, and people with this illness can lead full and productive lives.

Bipolar disorder typically develops in late adolescence or early adulthood. However, some people have their first symptoms during childhood, and some develop them late in life. It is often not recognized as an illness, and people may suffer for years before it is properly diagnosed and treated. Like diabetes or heart disease, bipolar disorder is a long-term illness that must be carefully managed throughout a person's life.
"Manic-depression distorts moods and thoughts, incites dreadful behaviors, destroys the basis of rational thought, and too often erodes the desire and will to live. It is an illness that is biological in its origins, yet one that feels psychological in the experience of it; an illness that is unique in conferring advantage and pleasure, yet one that brings in its wake almost unendurable suffering and, not infrequently, suicide."

What Are the Symptoms of Bipolar Disorder?
Bipolar disorder causes dramatic mood swings—from overly "high" and/or irritable to sad and hopeless, and then back again, often with periods of normal mood in between. Severe changes in energy and behavior go along with these changes in mood. The periods of highs and lows are called episodes of mania and depression.

Signs and symptoms of mania (or a manic episode) include:
Increased energy, activity, and restlessness
Excessively "high," overly good, euphoric mood
Extreme irritability
Racing thoughts and talking very fast, jumping from one idea to another
Distractibility, can't concentrate well
Little sleep needed
Unrealistic beliefs in one's abilities and powers
Poor judgment
Spending sprees
A lasting period of behavior that is different from usual
Increased sexual drive
Abuse of drugs, particularly cocaine, alcohol, and sleeping medications
Provocative, intrusive, or aggressive behavior
Denial that anything is wrong


A manic episode is diagnosed if elevated mood occurs with three or more of the other symptoms most of the day, nearly every day, for 1 week or longer. If the mood is irritable, four additional symptoms must be present.
Signs and symptoms of depression (or a depressive episode) include:
Lasting sad, anxious, or empty mood
Feelings of hopelessness or pessimism
Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, or helplessness
Loss of interest or pleasure in activities once enjoyed, including sex
Decreased energy, a feeling of fatigue or of being "slowed down"
Difficulty concentrating, remembering, making decisions
Restlessness or irritability
Sleeping too much, or can't sleep
Change in appetite and/or unintended weight loss or gain
Chronic pain or other persistent bodily symptoms that are not caused by physical illness or injury
Thoughts of death or suicide, or suicide attempts


A depressive episode is diagnosed if five or more of these symptoms last most of the day, nearly every day, for a period of 2 weeks or longer.
A mild to moderate level of mania is called hypomania. Hypomania may feel good to the person who experiences it and may even be associated with good functioning and enhanced productivity. Thus even when family and friends learn to recognize the mood swings as possible bipolar disorder, the person may deny that anything is wrong. Without proper treatment, however, hypomania can become severe mania in some people or can switch into depression.

Sometimes, severe episodes of mania or depression include symptoms of psychosis (or psychotic symptoms). Common psychotic symptoms are hallucinations (hearing, seeing, or otherwise sensing the presence of things not actually there) and delusions (false, strongly held beliefs not influenced by logical reasoning or explained by a person's usual cultural concepts). Psychotic symptoms in bipolar disorder tend to reflect the extreme mood state at the time. For example, delusions of grandiosity, such as believing one is the President or has special powers or wealth, may occur during mania; delusions of guilt or worthlessness, such as believing that one is ruined and penniless or has committed some terrible crime, may appear during depression.

People with bipolar disorder who have these symptoms are sometimes incorrectly diagnosed as having schizophrenia, another severe mental illness.
It may be helpful to think of the various mood states in bipolar disorder as a spectrum or continuous range. At one end is severe depression, above which is moderate depression and then mild low mood, which many people call "the blues" when it is short-lived but is termed "dysthymia" when it is chronic. Then there is normal or balanced mood, above which comes hypomania (mild to moderate mania), and then severe mania.
In some people, however, symptoms of mania and depression may occur together in what is called a mixed bipolar state. Symptoms of a mixed state often include agitation, trouble sleeping, significant change in appetite, psychosis, and suicidal thinking. A person may have a very sad, hopeless mood while at the same time feeling extremely energized.
Bipolar disorder may appear to be a problem other than mental illness—for instance, alcohol or drug abuse, poor school or work performance, or strained interpersonal relationships. Such problems in fact may be signs of an underlying mood disorder.


Diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder
Like other mental illnesses, bipolar disorder cannot yet be identified physiologically—for example, through a blood test or a brain scan. Therefore, a diagnosis of bipolar disorder is made on the basis of symptoms, course of illness, and, when available, family history. The diagnostic criteria for bipolar disorder are described in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual for Mental Disorders, fourth edition (DSM-IV).
Descriptions offered by people with bipolar disorder give valuable insights into the various mood states associated with the illness:


Depression: I doubt completely my ability to do anything well. It seems as though my mind has slowed down and burned out to the point of being virtually useless…. [I am] haunt[ed]… with the total, the desperate hopelessness of it all…. Others say, "It's only temporary, it will pass, you will get over it," but of course they haven't any idea of how I feel, although they are certain they do. If I can't feel, move, think or care, then what on earth is the point?


Hypomania: At first when I'm high, it's tremendous… ideas are fast… like shooting stars you follow until brighter ones appear…. All shyness disappears, the right words and gestures are suddenly there… uninteresting people, things become intensely interesting. Sensuality is pervasive, the desire to seduce and be seduced is irresistible. Your marrow is infused with unbelievable feelings of ease, power, well-being, omnipotence, euphoria… you can do anything… but, somewhere this changes.

Mania: The fast ideas become too fast and there are far too many… overwhelming confusion replaces clarity… you stop keeping up with it—memory goes. Infectious humor ceases to amuse. Your friends become frightened…. everything is now against the grain… you are irritable, angry, frightened, uncontrollable, and trapped.

Suicide
Some people with bipolar disorder become suicidal. Anyone who is thinking about committing suicide needs immediate attention, preferably from a mental health professional or a physician. Anyone who talks about suicide should be taken seriously. Risk for suicide appears to be higher earlier in the course of the illness. Therefore, recognizing bipolar disorder early and learning how best to manage it may decrease the risk of death by suicide.

Signs and symptoms that may accompany suicidal feelings include:
talking about feeling suicidal or wanting to die
feeling hopeless, that nothing will ever change or get better
feeling helpless, that nothing one does makes any difference
feeling like a burden to family and friends
abusing alcohol or drugs
putting affairs in order (e.g., organizing finances or giving away possessions to prepare for one's death)
writing a suicide note
putting oneself in harm's way, or in situations where there is a danger of being killed
If you are feeling suicidal or know someone who is:
call a doctor, emergency room, or 911 right away to get immediate help
make sure you, or the suicidal person, are not left alone
make sure that access is prevented to large amounts of medication, weapons, or other items that could be used for self-harm
While some suicide attempts are carefully planned over time, others are impulsive acts that have not been well thought out; thus, the final point in the box above may be a valuable long-term strategy for people with bipolar disorder. Either way, it is important to understand that suicidal feelings and actions are symptoms of an illness that can be treated. With proper treatment, suicidal feelings can be overcome.

What Is the Course of Bipolar Disorder?
Episodes of mania and depression typically recur across the life span. Between episodes, most people with bipolar disorder are free of symptoms, but as many as one-third of people have some residual symptoms. A small percentage of people experience chronic unremitting symptoms despite treatment.
The classic form of the illness, which involves recurrent episodes of mania and depression, is called bipolar I disorder. Some people, however, never develop severe mania but instead experience milder episodes of hypomania that alternate with depression; this form of the illness is called bipolar II disorder. When four or more episodes of illness occur within a 12-month period, a person is said to have rapid-cycling bipolar disorder. Some people experience multiple episodes within a single week, or even within a single day. Rapid cycling tends to develop later in the course of illness and is more common among women than among men.
People with bipolar disorder can lead healthy and productive lives when the illness is effectively treated. Without treatment, however, the natural course of bipolar disorder tends to worsen. Over time a person may suffer more frequent (more rapid-cycling) and more severe manic and depressive episodes than those experienced when the illness first appeared. But in most cases, proper treatment can help reduce the frequency and severity of episodes and can help people with bipolar disorder maintain good quality of life.


Can Children and Adolescents Have Bipolar Disorder?
Both children and adolescents can develop bipolar disorder. It is more likely to affect the children of parents who have the illness.
Unlike many adults with bipolar disorder, whose episodes tend to be more clearly defined, children and young adolescents with the illness often experience very fast mood swings between depression and mania many times within a day. Children with mania are more likely to be irritable and prone to destructive tantrums than to be overly happy and elated. Mixed symptoms also are common in youths with bipolar disorder. Older adolescents who develop the illness may have more classic, adult-type episodes and symptoms.
Bipolar disorder in children and adolescents can be hard to tell apart from other problems that may occur in these age groups. For example, while irritability and aggressiveness can indicate bipolar disorder, they also can be symptoms of attention deficit hyperactivity disorder, conduct disorder, oppositional defiant disorder, or other types of mental disorders more common among adults such as major depression or schizophrenia. Drug abuse also may lead to such symptoms.
For any illness, however, effective treatment depends on appropriate diagnosis. Children or adolescents with emotional and behavioral symptoms should be carefully evaluated by a mental health professional. Any child or adolescent who has suicidal feelings, talks about suicide, or attempts suicide should be taken seriously and should receive immediate help from a mental health specialist.


What Causes Bipolar Disorder?
Scientists are learning about the possible causes of bipolar disorder through several kinds of studies. Most scientists now agree that there is no single cause for bipolar disorder—rather, many factors act together to produce the illness.
Because bipolar disorder tends to run in families, researchers have been searching for specific genes—the microscopic "building blocks" of DNA inside all cells that influence how the body and mind work and grow—passed down through generations that may increase a person's chance of developing the illness. But genes are not the whole story. Studies of identical twins, who share all the same genes, indicate that both genes and other factors play a role in bipolar disorder. If bipolar disorder were caused entirely by genes, then the identical twin of someone with the illness would always develop the illness, and research has shown that this is not the case. But if one twin has bipolar disorder, the other twin is more likely to develop the illness than is another sibling.
In addition, findings from gene research suggest that bipolar disorder, like other mental illnesses, does not occur because of a single gene. It appears likely that many different genes act together, and in combination with other factors of the person or the person's environment, to cause bipolar disorder. Finding these genes, each of which contributes only a small amount toward the vulnerability to bipolar disorder, has been extremely difficult. But scientists expect that the advanced research tools now being used will lead to these discoveries and to new and better treatments for bipolar disorder.
Brain-imaging studies are helping scientists learn what goes wrong in the brain to produce bipolar disorder and other mental illnesses. New brain-imaging techniques allow researchers to take pictures of the living brain at work, to examine its structure and activity, without the need for surgery or other invasive procedures. These techniques include magnetic resonance imaging (MRI), positron emission tomography (PET), and functional magnetic resonance imaging (fMRI). There is evidence from imaging studies that the brains of people with bipolar disorder may differ from the brains of healthy individuals. As the differences are more clearly identified and defined through research, scientists will gain a better understanding of the underlying causes of the illness, and eventually may be able to predict which types of treatment will work most effectively.


How Is Bipolar Disorder Treated?
Most people with bipolar disorder—even those with the most severe forms—can achieve substantial stabilization of their mood swings and related symptoms with proper treatment.
Because bipolar disorder is a recurrent illness, long-term preventive treatment is strongly recommended and almost always indicated. A strategy that combines medication and psychosocial treatment is optimal for managing the disorder over time.
In most cases, bipolar disorder is much better controlled if treatment is continuous than if it is on and off. But even when there are no breaks in treatment, mood changes can occur and should be reported immediately to your doctor. The doctor may be able to prevent a full-blown episode by making adjustments to the treatment plan. Working closely with the doctor and communicating openly about treatment concerns and options can make a difference in treatment effectiveness.
In addition, keeping a chart of daily mood symptoms, treatments, sleep patterns, and life events may help people with bipolar disorder and their families to better understand the illness. This chart also can help the doctor track and treat the illness most effectively.


Medications
Medications for bipolar disorder are prescribed by psychiatrists—medical doctors (M.D.) with expertise in the diagnosis and treatment of mental disorders. While primary care physicians who do not specialize in psychiatry also may prescribe these medications, it is recommended that people with bipolar disorder see a psychiatrist for treatment.
Medications known as "mood stabilizers" usually are prescribed to help control bipolar disorder. Several different types of mood stabilizers are available. In general, people with bipolar disorder continue treatment with mood stabilizers for extended periods of time (years). Other medications are added when necessary, typically for shorter periods, to treat episodes of mania or depression that break through despite the mood stabilizer.
Lithium, the first mood-stabilizing medication approved by the U.S. Food and Drug Administration (FDA) for treatment of mania, is often very effective in controlling mania and preventing the recurrence of both manic and depressive episodes.
Anticonvulsant medications, such as valproate (Depakote®) or carbamazepine (Tegretol®), also can have mood-stabilizing effects and may be especially useful for difficult-to-treat bipolar episodes. Valproate was FDA-approved in 1995 for treatment of mania.
Newer anticonvulsant medications, including lamotrigine (Lamictal®), gabapentin (Neurontin®), and topiramate (Topamax®), are being studied to determine how well they work in stabilizing mood cycles.
Anticonvulsant medications may be combined with lithium, or with each other, for maximum effect.
Children and adolescents with bipolar disorder generally are treated with lithium, but valproate and carbamazepine also are used. Researchers are evaluating the safety and efficacy of these and other psychotropic medications in children and adolescents. There is some evidence that valproate may lead to adverse hormone changes in teenage girls and polycystic ovary syndrome in women who began taking the medication before age 20. Therefore, young female patients taking valproate should be monitored carefully by a physician.
Women with bipolar disorder who wish to conceive, or who become pregnant, face special challenges due to the possible harmful effects of existing mood stabilizing medications on the developing fetus and the nursing infant. Therefore, the benefits and risks of all available treatment options should be discussed with a clinician skilled in this area. New treatments with reduced risks during pregnancy and lactation are under study.


Treatment of Bipolar Depression
Research has shown that people with bipolar disorder are at risk of switching into mania or hypomania, or of developing rapid cycling, during treatment with antidepressant medication. Therefore, "mood-stabilizing" medications generally are required, alone or in combination with antidepressants, to protect people with bipolar disorder from this switch. Lithium and valproate are the most commonly used mood-stabilizing drugs today. However, research studies continue to evaluate the potential mood-stabilizing effects of newer medications.
Atypical antipsychotic medications, including clozapine (Clozaril®), olanzapine (Zyprexa®), risperidone (Risperdal®), quetiapine (Seroquel®), and ziprasidone (Geodon®), are being studied as possible treatments for bipolar disorder. Evidence suggests clozapine may be helpful as a mood stabilizer for people who do not respond to lithium or anticonvulsants. Other research has supported the efficacy of olanzapine for acute mania, an indication that has recently received FDA approval. Olanzapine may also help relieve psychotic depression.
If insomnia is a problem, a high-potency benzodiazepine medication such as clonazepam (Klonopin®) or lorazepam (Ativan®) may be helpful to promote better sleep. However, since these medications may be habit-forming, they are best prescribed on a short-term basis. Other types of sedative medications, such as zolpidem (Ambien®), are sometimes used instead.
Changes to the treatment plan may be needed at various times during the course of bipolar disorder to manage the illness most effectively. A psychiatrist should guide any changes in type or dose of medication.
Be sure to tell the psychiatrist about all other prescription drugs, over-the-counter medications, or natural supplements you may be taking. This is important because certain medications and supplements taken together may cause adverse reactions.
To reduce the chance of relapse or of developing a new episode, it is important to stick to the treatment plan. Talk to your doctor if you have any concerns about the medications.
Thyroid Function
People with bipolar disorder often have abnormal thyroid gland function. Because too much or too little thyroid hormone alone can lead to mood and energy changes, it is important that thyroid levels are carefully monitored by a physician.
People with rapid cycling tend to have co-occurring thyroid problems and may need to take thyroid pills in addition to their medications for bipolar disorder. Also, lithium treatment may cause low thyroid levels in some people, resulting in the need for thyroid supplementation.


Medication Side Effects
Before starting a new medication for bipolar disorder, always talk with your psychiatrist and/or pharmacist about possible side effects. Depending on the medication, side effects may include weight gain, nausea, tremor, reduced sexual drive or performance, anxiety, hair loss, movement problems, or dry mouth. Be sure to tell the doctor about all side effects you notice during treatment. He or she may be able to change the dose or offer a different medication to relieve them. Your medication should not be changed or stopped without the psychiatrist's guidance.

Psychosocial Treatments
As an addition to medication, psychosocial treatments—including certain forms of psychotherapy (or "talk" therapy)—are helpful in providing support, education, and guidance to people with bipolar disorder and their families. Studies have shown that psychosocial interventions can lead to increased mood stability, fewer hospitalizations, and improved functioning in several areas. A licensed psychologist, social worker, or counselor typically provides these therapies and often works together with the psychiatrist to monitor a patient's progress. The number, frequency, and type of sessions should be based on the treatment needs of each person.
Psychosocial interventions commonly used for bipolar disorder are cognitive behavioral therapy, psychoeducation, family therapy, and a newer technique, interpersonal and social rhythm therapy. NIMH researchers are studying how these interventions compare to one another when added to medication treatment for bipolar disorder.
Cognitive behavioral therapy helps people with bipolar disorder learn to change inappropriate or negative thought patterns and behaviors associated with the illness.
Psychoeducation involves teaching people with bipolar disorder about the illness and its treatment, and how to recognize signs of relapse so that early intervention can be sought before a full-blown illness episode occurs. Psychoeducation also may be helpful for family members.
Family therapy uses strategies to reduce the level of distress within the family that may either contribute to or result from the ill person's symptoms.
Interpersonal and social rhythm therapy helps people with bipolar disorder both to improve interpersonal relationships and to regularize their daily routines. Regular daily routines and sleep schedules may help protect against manic episodes.
As with medication, it is important to follow the treatment plan for any psychosocial intervention to achieve the greatest benefit.


Other Treatments
In situations where medication, psychosocial treatment, and the combination of these interventions prove ineffective, or work too slowly to relieve severe symptoms such as psychosis or suicidality, electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) may be considered. ECT may also be considered to treat acute episodes when medical conditions, including pregnancy, make the use of medications too risky. ECT is a highly effective treatment for severe depressive, manic, and/or mixed episodes. The possibility of long-lasting memory problems, although a concern in the past, has been significantly reduced with modern ECT techniques. However, the potential benefits and risks of ECT, and of available alternative interventions, should be carefully reviewed and discussed with individuals considering this treatment and, where appropriate, with family or friends.
Herbal or natural supplements, such as St. John's wort (Hypericum perforatum), have not been well studied, and little is known about their effects on bipolar disorder. Because the FDA does not regulate their production, different brands of these supplements can contain different amounts of active ingredient. Before trying herbal or natural supplements, it is important to discuss them with your doctor. There is evidence that St. John's wort can reduce the effectiveness of certain medications. In addition, like prescription antidepressants, St. John's wort may cause a switch into mania in some individuals with bipolar disorder, especially if no mood stabilizer is being taken.
Omega-3 fatty acids found in fish oil are being studied to determine their usefulness, alone and when added to conventional medications, for long-term treatment of bipolar disorder.
A Long-Term Illness That Can Be Effectively Treated
Even though episodes of mania and depression naturally come and go, it is important to understand that bipolar disorder is a long-term illness that currently has no cure. Staying on treatment, even during well times, can help keep the disease under control and reduce the chance of having recurrent, worsening episodes.
Do Other Illnesses Co-occur with Bipolar Disorder?
Alcohol and drug abuse are very common among people with bipolar disorder. Research findings suggest that many factors may contribute to these substance abuse problems, including self-medication of symptoms, mood symptoms either brought on or perpetuated by substance abuse, and risk factors that may influence the occurrence of both bipolar disorder and substance use disorders. Treatment for co-occurring substance abuse, when present, is an important part of the overall treatment plan.
Anxiety disorders, such as post-traumatic stress disorder and obsessive-compulsive disorder, also may be common in people with bipolar disorder. Co-occurring anxiety disorders may respond to the treatments used for bipolar disorder, or they may require separate treatment.

How Can Individuals and Families Get Help for Bipolar Disorder?
Anyone with bipolar disorder should be under the care of a psychiatrist skilled in the diagnosis and treatment of this disease. Other mental health professionals, such as psychologists, psychiatric social workers, and psychiatric nurses, can assist in providing the person and family with additional approaches to treatment.
Help can be found at:
University—or medical school—affiliated programs
Hospital departments of psychiatry
Private psychiatric offices and clinics
Health maintenance organizations (HMOs)
Offices of family physicians, internists, and pediatricians
Public community mental health centers
People with bipolar disorder may need help to get help.
Often people with bipolar disorder do not realize how impaired they are, or they blame their problems on some cause other than mental illness.
A person with bipolar disorder may need strong encouragement from family and friends to seek treatment. Family physicians can play an important role in providing referral to a mental health professional.
Sometimes a family member or friend may need to take the person with bipolar disorder for proper mental health evaluation and treatment.
A person who is in the midst of a severe episode may need to be hospitalized for his or her own protection and for much-needed treatment. There may be times when the person must be hospitalized against his or her wishes.
Ongoing encouragement and support are needed after a person obtains treatment, because it may take a while to find the best treatment plan for each individual.
In some cases, individuals with bipolar disorder may agree, when the disorder is under good control, to a preferred course of action in the event of a future manic or depressive relapse.
Like other serious illnesses, bipolar disorder is also hard on spouses, family members, friends, and employers.
Family members of someone with bipolar disorder often have to cope with the person's serious behavioral problems, such as wild spending sprees during mania or extreme withdrawal from others during depression, and the lasting consequences of these behaviors.
Many people with bipolar disorder benefit from joining support groups such as those sponsored by the National Depressive and Manic Depressive Association (NDMDA), the National Alliance for the Mentally Ill (NAMI), and the National Mental Health Association (NMHA). Families and friends can also benefit from support groups offered by these organizations.

What About Clinical Studies for Bipolar Disorder?
Some people with bipolar disorder receive medication and/or psychosocial therapy by volunteering to participate in clinical studies (clinical trials). Clinical studies involve the scientific investigation of illness and treatment of illness in humans. Clinical studies in mental health can yield information about the efficacy of a medication or a combination of treatments, the usefulness of a behavioral intervention or type of psychotherapy, the reliability of a diagnostic procedure, or the success of a prevention method. Clinical studies also guide scientists in learning how illness develops, progresses, lessens, and affects both mind and body. Millions of Americans diagnosed with mental illness lead healthy, productive lives because of information discovered through clinical studies. These studies are not always right for everyone, however. It is important for each individual to consider carefully the possible risks and benefits of a clinical study before making a decision to participate.
In recent years, NIMH has introduced a new generation of "real-world" clinical studies. They are called "real-world" studies for several reasons. Unlike traditional clinical trials, they offer multiple different treatments and treatment combinations. In addition, they aim to include large numbers of people with mental disorders living in communities throughout the U.S. and receiving treatment across a wide variety of settings. Individuals with more than one mental disorder, as well as those with co-occurring physical illnesses, are encouraged to consider participating in these new studies. The main goal of the real-world studies is to improve treatment strategies and outcomes for all people with these disorders. In addition to measuring improvement in illness symptoms, the studies will evaluate how treatments influence other important, real-world issues such as quality of life, ability to work, and social functioning. They also will assess the cost-effectiveness of different treatments and factors that affect how well people stay on their treatment plans.

From the National Institute of Mental Health

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Bill

How far that little candle throws his beams! So shines a good deed in a naughty world.

-William Shakespeare

Amen!

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

My cat's new boyfriend

She's been sleeping on his lap, but I haven't been able to catch her long enough for a pic until this morning...

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Yesterday, I put my glasses on the scarecrow since I forgot my case in the car!! LOL, Oh well!

C

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

My husband is camera challenged!

He can't take pics to save his life....I wonder what he's thinking when he has the camera in his hands anyway??? LOL!

12 week pic with clothes on! These are still my regular clothes, just the loosest ones I can find...I figure I still have another month or two in these (ok, maybe just one!)

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Monday, October 17, 2005

Do a little dance!

This is the little dance I do every morning after hearing my babies' heartbeats!
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It's musique to Momo's ears! ! ! It's officially 12 weeks today! If we could sneak a little peak at my two peaches, this is what they might look like:
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My little peaches this week:
Vocal cords begin to form - Those precious eyes begin to move closer together - Ears shift to their normal place on the side of the head-Intestines move farther in to your child's body -His or her liver begins to function - Responsible for cleansing the blood, storing nutrients, and providing needed chemicals, this is an important event!-The pancreas begins to produce insulin
Your baby's average size is now at a whopping length: 2.13 inches (5.4cm) and weight: 0.49 ounce (14gm)
(Pregnancy.org)

From FF:
Your baby is about the size of a peach and is growing rapidly. Crown to rump, your baby measures 2.6 to 3.1 inches (6.5 to 7.8cm) and weighs 0.5 to 0.7 ounces (14 to 20g).
Your baby's legs are longer than her arms and her skin is red and transparent. Her eyelids are fused together and won't open for about four more months. Her arms are long enough to reach her mouth and she may begin to place her thumb in her mouth. Her sucking reflex, however, is not yet developed.
The tissue that will become your baby's bones is being laid out, especially around her head and her arms and legs. Some ribs may be distinguished at this time. The nose and chin are more prominent now.
Your baby will begin to practice breathing in the next few weeks as her chest rises and falls in mock breathing motions. She will also swallow small amounts of amniotic fluid which will be passed as urine.
Your placenta is providing all of your baby's needs for nutrition, oxygen and waste disposal, though the amniotic fluid will become more important later on.
All major components of the body are formed and now must grow and mature. From now on, your baby's development will consist primarily of organ maturity and growth and body refinement.

Mommy today:
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Last night had a bout of nausea, although it does seem to be subsiding more these days. Same for this morning, nausea, had to sit down due to dizziness and hot flashy feeling. Still steady at 129--only a 1lb. weight gain for the 1st trimester. I thought for sure after Saturday's feast that it would eek up a pound or two!!

Papi: Still singing the praises of his two children-in-waiting! Wants to buy a Minnesota twins jersery, too cute!
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When he first mentioned it, I thought he meant for me, then he mentioned again another time and said how he wants to wear it to Mom & Dads!!

Off to wait for the Best Buy tech to come and fix my Washer! Ugh...and this dizziness is getting to me!

CC

Friday, October 14, 2005

Girls day out!

Tomorrow is girls day out! YAY! I haven't seen my two nieces in almost a month!!!! AND they have yet to "see" me with my little pudge! OK, I'll admit it, it's gotten to be more than a pudge this week, more like a chub? LOL!

So, tomorrow we have a date for lunch! and then pedicures! What fun! I get to see my Denise too! Seen here just before her ears were pierced....ow ow ow ow ow!
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It will be a short trip though, just enough to see them, have lunch and do our toe-toes. DH is concerned that I'll overdo it, so I don't expect to be gone more than 3-4 hours! But I do have dry cleaning to pick up and a few groceries @ Whole Foods.

Then....dat awesome husband of mine said Sunday we can go window shopping @ baby stores! YAY! I know where I can I wanna go first!--Baby Depot! There's also a Right Start in the Rice Village that I wanna visit, they have some great strollers that I've been ogling! Hubby needs to de-stress and that's how we plan on doing it Sunday!

Oh, I almost forgot, this week, we announced to Cheryl! (My best friend since kindergarten & maid of honor) she happened to call Wednesday and I was trying to avoid her til at least after Thursdays appt. But, oh well, close enough. She was ecstatic for us, tearing up & everything.. Also called Cousin Nancy and told her, she was a total mess for me, totally happy. They (Nancy and her husband and 4 kids) came down this summer & we all went to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (just the 3 girls, Brianna 9, Bianca 5 and Bella Isabella 10 months!-her little boy, Ben 14, didn't go with us) and since then I've been avoiding her like the plague, trying not to tell her about the whole IVF process, pregnancy etc-no additional stess right? She has called twice and I did call her back once, only to get her voicemail-I left no message :-). So I caller her today and told her the good news....then I got news myself, my cousin *her brother Leo* is also pregnant (oops, I mean his new wife) and they are due in May too! I gave Nancy the "permission" to go ahead and spread the news to her family and the rest of my aunts, uncles, cousins etc.

So, we have made an official decision that it's OK to tell people now. Next will probably be my neighbors, (the dentist and his wife) who I've watched get pregnant & deliver 6 times (yes SIX, not a typo!)! Let's see, Bianca, David, Alexandria, Stephen, Victoria and Anthony) yes, that's it, all six & all in that order too, girl boy girl boy girl boy....they almost "caught" us a few weeks ago b/c they wanted to go out to dinner, we had to decline (my fatigue and nausea would have been an instant give away) but now, the gates are open and its blabber season! Now I can finally walk around the neighborhood to get some exercise!

Off to watch more TV! Nighty night, my little plums.....(they'll be peaches next week ;) )

C

Thursday, October 13, 2005

***Graduation Day***

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Officially the last appointment with my RE, will be getting referral to a "regular" OB....aaagghh agony, aaaaagggggooooonnnnnyyyyy....

Update:
It's official, we've graduated to a regular OB! My new doc is just a few hallways away from Dr. G, so I can always stop in and visit!!

But can someone say....wiggles, jiggles, shimmy, squirmy, wormy, ziggy, twiddle-dee and twiddle-doo! These two babies are soo amazing, wiggling, jiggling, shimmying so much that the doc could barely measure them! It was an amazing site to see. The spine is very clear and visible, so were the arms and legs, they were kicking around so much, it was just utter amazement....

Next appt. (1st OB appt.) is Tuesday October 25th @ 10am !! My new doc, Dr. J has over 20 years experience and is a clinical instructor at Baylor College of Medicine. We get to meet him in 12 days!

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Still ecstatic as always, just more relaxed now. 98-99% chance of both going to term! I can't contain myself!

E&C

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Strollers

So, we like these strollers so far....a bit BIG for what I was dreaming of all these years, but then again, never dreamt of having TWINS either!
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I like this 2nd one myself, from Valco...
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Heard the heartbeats this morning, mid 150's and low 160's, respectively.
It's music to my ears, I could just dance....

Monday, October 10, 2005

Our babies

Our babies are 11 weeks old today, in utero...here's what they might look like:
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At the size of a plum, your baby is now able to swallow. The urinary system functions. The baby swallows and urinates the amniotic fluid and the fluid is continually replaced. The baby is kicking but the mother cannot feel it yet. All vital organs are formed and, for the most part, function normally. From now on, they will grow in size and efficiency. (Taken from I-am-pregnant.com)

2 heartbeats heard this morning, churning away!

MoMo;
Lost 1lb. over the weekend, with all the nausea, headaches, fatigue all I did was sleep. Edited to add: Threw up twice this morning on the way out of the house....it was terrible. This followed by acid reflux for the rest of the day, oh and of course, gas! yuk yuk!

Me; 11 weeks...

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Papi:
Still nesting, although I must admit yesterday alot of time was spent in front of the T.V. watching the 18 inning Astros v. Braves game!

C

Sunday, October 09, 2005

11 weeks already!

Holy Toledo Batman! We've made it to 11 weeks! Scary and exciting all at the same time. This exact time last year I lost my angel to Turner's Syndrome....Now, we're armed with IVF/ICSI/PGD, (the great wonder of modern medicine) having had every genetic, anatomic, hormonal test etc. known to man! I'm in better spirits than I expected....the doppler is easing my worries down to a normal concern for expectant mommies!

We paid over $13,500.00 --(counting just from July 3,2005)... I say it's mere pennies in the grand scheme of things. How can you put a price tag on family? happiness? your legacy? Two beautifully growing babies.....two happy parents-to-be! I thought, nope, these are priceless!

So here we are, approaching 11 weeks. Scary and exciting all at the same time...

Today we're running some errands, going over to the IL's (canceled the BBQ) and instead we've opted to go to Olive Garden's NEVER ENDING PASTA BOWL!

Later, we're going window shopping for our new family car! (ok not a car, but a Suburban) Yes, a suburban.... After learning that we were blessed with twins, I asked Hubby what would we do. Our original plan was the Mercedes M -class. An SUV of sorts, that we've had our eyes on since we got pregnant the first time.

The plan was to sell my car (Mercedes C class) and our old SUV (Isuzu Trooper) and replace them with the Mercedes ML.....I can't convince Hubby that I no longer need my convertible, so that stays, and does his....There's NO touching his Harley Fat Boy or his matching Harley truck.....those stay as well. What are we doing with so many??? Car insurance is overwhelming but oh well, what to do, what to do?

After our trip in the Trooper to San Antonio during the Hurricane Rita evacuation, we thought, oh heck no, there is no way that the ML will do what we want, especially if we're going to have an automatic full family of 4 by early next Spring, ur pets and occasion IL trips with us...so we thought about it, and decided that maybe a bigger SUV would be needed. I remembered seeing the newest RX edition of the Benz, so I went to look at them last week. Uh-no. Minivan in the making.. I am NOT doing a minivan. At least not yet. So we thought further. Deciding on a bigger SUV, Suburban, Navigator, Land Rover, Cadillac ESX...I think the Suburban has caught our attention the most.

So today, we're going to do the first of what I expect will be many shopping ventures for a new SUV.

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Someone's opinion of you does not have to become your reality.

-Les Brown

Friday, October 07, 2005

You know how there are sooo many Dairy Queens across the country????

Well I found a Dairy King, I promise!

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HAHAHAHA, have you ever taken a Medical dictionary to a doctor and tried to quote from it?

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